Applying that to my behavior regarding eating was tested shortly after I arrived home from the study, as I hadn't had my evening meal. I am participating in a coaching session and eager to begin adding the healthy ingredients recommended, so I examined the refrigerator to see what I had to finish before tomorrow. Vegetables and ground chicken were planned for dinner, but I also pulled out a few pieces of not-very-interesting pizza, a half bowl of wilted fruit, and a yogurt-berry compote. I had all I could do to finish the dinner, and reached over to grab the pizza when my "conscience angel" and I had this conversation: why are you going to eat that... well to 'finish' it...and then what?....
I could see where this was going and already knew the answer: I will feel too-full and almost sick. I looked at the fruit and again asked then what...and then I will be filled with regret, wish I hadn't done it and ask forgiveness and start over a pound heavier... and, so, tell me again, why were you going to eat that?' I got up and threw out the wilted fruit and pizza and replaced the compote for tomorrow.
Many people might not understand that struggle - but for some reason I feel I am the disposal system for all abundance in the refrigerator, and the enemy is content to keep filling my mind with the thought that the fear of "wasting" food (often in no condition to be eaten) is more important than my health. I am learning it is not. It is a lie that I should even consider eating beyond health and comfort just so I will make use of every scrap. Another little - no that's not true - it is a very large victory for me.
Lunch: Abundance of whitefish and vegetables from Sunday and remaining cream of asparagus soup
Dinner: Cauliflower 'mashed potatoes' (head of cauliflower and one small potato cooked together), ground chicken and onions, lemon-olive oil and Young Living blended spice.
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