Day 12 - Seems like...feelings don't make it true

What a frustrating day I had today.  Nothing to do with the food, though emotions and hormones always seem to lead me to at least think about chocolate.  It was just locating a dated item, which I finally found, but the interim seems like such a time waster.  I was getting in such a funk and poor hubby asked if I'd taken my Vitamin B6! (that is a holdover from PMS days as that was my mood regulator).

Seems like was my key today.  I don't know how many times I said that in my frustration, and then went to a Beth Moore Bible Study and she told of a time when she could not sense or feel God's presence.  She shared how she went on for several weeks, still doing her usual studies, etc. but in a twilight-zone mood, when she finally realized that what it SEEMED LIKE - what she was FEELING was not true!  Once she turned to believing the truth of God's Word (Jesus said, I will never leave you or forsake you) instead of the lie based on feelings alone, she was restored and revived and very excited to be delivered from that dark place.

Then my evening devotion was based on John 8:44 and speaking of the devil "He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. Whenever he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own nature; for he is a liar, and the father of lies. "  There are two basic lies that deceive us whenever we have made a commitment to submit to God's authority in something.

1:  Before - before we fall the whisper that is a lie is that one fall or one sin will not/does not matter. We can pull ourselves up and start over, fully recovered.
2.  After - after we fall lie denies the before lie changing to now that you have fallen or sinned, it is hopeless to recover; you will never be the same again, so you might as well keep on sinning.

The TRUTH is
Before:  One sin does matter, because though God will completely restore us, we likely will have consequences in health or life from our poor choices.  Believing the before lie can weaken the will and lead to believing the after lie and continued wallowing in the weakness or temptation.
After:  John 1:9 says "if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousnes."   ALL would include the power of the past over the present and the power of the present over the future. 

My past habits do not have to control my present or my future - not if I am first dining at The Lord's Table, being filled with His goodness and the fruit of His spirit.   I think it is interesting how God works on me, because once I accepted the lesson from the Bible study and the application from the devotional, I was ready to ask his direction for my all-day problem. "Coincidentally" I thought of checking the hotel reservation date which connected with the paper I was seeking and settled the issue.  Next time I plan to start with God instead of exhausting my thimble full of resources first! 

Breakfast:  Cottage cheese breakfast with raspberries.  Mixed raspberry juice with a little cream (about a tbsp.) and had a few dried blueberries (no sugar) for a different treat today.

Lunch:  Abundance of Cod and veggies from yesterday, salad of lettuce, 1/2 apple, a few dried cranberries and Oil-free Cranberry Vinagrette (see website at resources)

Dinner:  Creamy Pasta Primivera - Spelt noodles topped with brocolli, matchstick carrots, garlic, red sweet pepper, italian seasoning.  1 cup of chicken.  Three times more vegetables than pasta.  The creamy part is a little cream cheese in almond milk, warmed and tossed with vegetables.  Another favorite.  Can also be made with deli turkey - ask for a slice 1/2" thick, and cut in cubes.

Hint:  If you have a spouse who needs more carbs, serve the usual amount of noodles or rice to him, and make your plate "upside down", putting the vegetables on the plate first, and top with 1/4 the amount of rice or pasta for the same flavor and texture without the carbs.

Exercise: Treadmill and stairs